Monday, March 14, 2005

A Pirates life for me!!!!!

Just stop and think if you could be anything or any one. I would be a superhero. Oh yes that's right! I know it would be a stress filled job where I was always on call, but it would be great. The most exciting part would of course be the type of powers I would have and what my superhero suit would be like. As you might have guessed from my title.... I would dress and talk like a pirate. My eye patch would have a computer hooked up to it and would help me see really far and look through walls. It would also scan police scanner frequencies at all times to give me the fastest info possible of dangerous crime. I would have a hook but it would only be used to leave behind as my calling card of sorts. My actual powers would be pretty basic but amazing none the less. I would have super human strength of course, which includes the ability to jump really really high. I would also have incredible fighting skills. I would carry a laser sword and would be considered one of the greatest swordsmen that has ever lived. I would also have a robotic flying hawk that would assist me in my endeavors to clean up New York City. (It would be my eyes in the sky) My vehicle of choice would of course be a very upgraded mini cooper that could also go under water. (to go to my underwater cave) The most circulated rumor about me would be that I was immortal. (But this is not something I like to talk about, and if people bring it up I usually get angry) So that's it ... beware... arrrrrrgggggg

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Hold me close so i can be content...

It's amazing how you can try and try to do something over and over and over again but the doors just don't fly open like you want them to. blah blah. Gosh I'm sorry guys but it is really hard for me to understand God ways. I want to I really do. I really do want what His best is for me, but many times, probably because I'm not focusing on Him, I keep reaching for what I want and things just don't work out. My prayer is this.... That God in all his wisdom would just give me a better discernment of people. I just want people to be honest with me that's all I ask. NO CRAP! Just the truth! Especially if I ask for it face to face. I hate ending days like this. I'm up..... up..... up.... doing great.....blahhhhhhhh. And there it is something hits you that you did not expect. And it's something that you've really been thinking about lately. The "TON OF BRICKS" falls on you and it could have been dodged if only someone could just be brutally honest. Well that was definitely a rant. Sorry! I know this. God is still more important than any stupid thing like this and I should just brush it off. He will guide me if I ask so I will wait it out. I will ask for His best in my life. That is what I desire.(I just realized how many details you are probably missing in this rant.... )

Friday, January 28, 2005

Home.

I Lived in Barcelona, Spain for two months working for the IMB. It was a very good experience for our group of five. We did research for the missionaries that were going to be moving into that area. I had a small knowledge of the language before I went, but being just basically dropped off in the Barcelona area, with our only contact with other missionaries being by telephone, we just had to do our best. It was a streching experience and I didn't love every single minute of it, but those parts that I didn't enjoy made me draw closer to God. I came to a certain point in the trip where instead of leaning on my teammates I let myself lean on God. It took getting away from my team for certain times to have personal time to reflect. At one point I could finally travel on the trains by myself because I understood the schedules. So when the doors went to shut on our train I hopped off at the wrong stop to make my way home by myself. I just looked at my friend Nikki and said, "I'll see you at home." And I hopped off. The look on her face was priceless! That was when I wasn't worried about home any more. Spain was home. It was where God put me for the time. From now on wherever God takes me. That's Home.